Jiang, remember the doctor who saved your life when you were a little kid?
Well, he saved you so that you can save others. You are here today because of him. It's a debt. You owe it to him. And the only way for you to return that favor is by saving more lives, by giving others another chance for survival. Maybe one of them will turn out like you, he will excel in school and become a doctor. Just like you. That doctor has given you a gift, and you have to pass it on. I know how tough medicine is and how disillusioned and jaded one can get. But at the end of the day, when you have changed the lives of others, you will realize that it's all worth it. No other profession can give you the same satisfaction as giving new lives to people. Persevere on, you can do it. And i will be so proud of you.
Just for Laughs...What is an ig?
An eskimo's house without the toilet
And now, for my favorite riddle/joke of all times ...
What is the difference between a fly and a mosquito?
A mosquito can fly but a fly cannot mosquito
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
(boy, it never fails to make me laugh no matter how many times i've heard it)
Ok, it's dumb. Back to hitting the books.
Gosh, i feel like im in hell. Studying has never been so painful for me before. I've survived 12 years of mugging, gone through shits like PSLE, O levels, A levels...i should be pretty used to all these. BUT NO! This is different. It's arts we are talking about. Hello? Im a science student, what the hell am i doing in arts? URgh, science is so much easier to study. I can just sit there for hours completing stacks of exam papers and memorising every single details, but arts is so different. There's no fixed answers, no fixed syllabus, everything is just so messy and disorganized. I hate studying for things without a structure. I tried to organize my notes but hell no, its impossible! I've made some pretty effective and productive mugging for the past few days cos im studying for psy and econs, something WITH A STRUCTURE. Then now im procrastinating when i have two humans paper for the next two days and i have no idea how to study for them and not to mention that they are f***ing boring. I cant concentrate,and I dont care if i screw up, i just want it to be over NOW!!!
Argh!
Im blasting my speakers now. Listening to bond. Their music is really excellent for releasing frustrations. Neighbours please wear your ear plugs cos my speaker is going at full volume and im screaming like a mad woman.
AHHHHHHH!!!!
You know, psychology is actually very relevant in our lives. Like duh, psychology is the study of how humans feel, think and behave, but that's beside the point. The point is, you dont need to be a psychologist to apply it in your life.
There's this thing called Flooding in psychotherapy whereby you expose a person to his phobia such that the conditioned fear response gradually become extinct.If you dont get what i mean, it just means that you put this person with a phobia of dogs(cat, snake whatever) in a room with this cute little harmless puppy.He is trapped, he cant get out, nor avoid the dog. Provided that he hasnt fainted from fear, the fear will slowly extinguish when nothing bad happens to him.
So,i've came up with a distorted flooding of my own to stop my obsession with chocolates. Basically, the idea is the same - extinction of a response. So im gonna "flood" myself with lots and lots of chocolates, which is what i've been doing for the past few hours. I've been eating chocolates non-stop, all kinds, all brands. Im having another piece of cadbury in my mouth now as i speak, and honestly, im getting a bit sick of it. Those chocolates are toooo rich, until i find my marginal utility decreasing more and more. I doubt i will want to eat anymore for the time-being. In fact, i dont feel like eating anything else now as im starting to feel a bit quesy from the chocolate overload. See, so it works. Maybe if i do that often enough, i may stop loving chocolates one day!
Now, that is called rationalization - making up acceptable excuses for unacceptable behavior. Like how i always convince myself that eating one piece of chocolates is not going to make a great difference on the weighing scale, or justify that if i finish eating up all the chocolates at home then i wouldnt have any in the future to tempt me, or that i will break my grandma's heart if i dont eat the chocolates she saved for me, or that if i flood myself with enough chocolates i could actually curb the cravings. you get what i mean.
Well, this is part of Freud's psychological defense mechanisms. Believe it or not, we do use it pretty often to make ourselves feel better!
Like denial - an alcoholic will never admit he is one.
Or Reaction formation- forming an emotional reaction that is opposite of one's actual feelings. Like outwardly saying you dont like person A when actually you have deep feelings for him. Dont look away, you know im talking about you!
Or projection- placing one's thoughts onto others as if it doesnt belong to oneself. Like how you are attracted to A but denies this and instead think that he is attracted to you. Im sure it happens to any of us out there.
Displacement, now dont say you never do this, expressing feelings that woule be threatening if directed at real target to a less threatening substitute target. Example? Aggression displacement. Your dad yelled at you and then you abused your poor door by slamming it and then your poor boyfriend by shouting at him for no reason. Alright, i admit, im guilty as charged.
Or the more common identification, becoming like someone else to deal with ur inferior complex.
There's a few more but these are probably more common and applicable to everyone. Interesting huh? There's actually a name for all these feelings that you have experienced and dont be ashamed, we are all SUPPOSED TO feel that. Wait till i tell you the absurd theories of Freud that will make you cry with disbelief and i bet everyone will blurt "WHAT THE FCUK!"
Well, i've probably wasted enough time already when im supposed to be mugging. But hey! This is called revision for psychology right? :D
Oh my, ching cheng ching cheng, always so full of excuses... but do humor me, im getting a little cranky from the exams :p
oK, maybe im romanticizing something pretty obvious and dumb. It is so naive and simple sometimes i cant even believe myself. I hope i have entertained you all with the stupidity and ignorance of that post :)
I was running around my neighbourhood this morning when i observed this amazing sight.
Such strength. Such loyalty. It is only a small little ant and it could carry such a burden that's heavier than its own weight. I stood there, captivated. For the half an hour that i was there, it scrambled about, it looked tired, yet it never let the dead ant drop. I followed its path, trying to see where it is leading to, seeking to find an answer.
Then, i saw another group of ants, carrying another dead ant.
I was bewildered.
Of what importance are those dead ants to the ant's community?
What really struck me was the strength and unity of those ants. I see in them values that are gradually losing their significance to humans. Do we still care for the dead? Or do we just let them pass and the memory fade?
Argh, performed below expectations for my term papers, especially Psy. And i just cant seem to be able to concentrate. Im either online, looking for food, stoning etc etc etc, everything but studying. This is not good, i better mug hard soon if i want to do well. I cant be complacent, I must work hard. But why is it so difficult for me to focus focus focus!!!!!
Im in a dilemma!
The phone i've been waiting for, Nokia 7373, is finally out today! It's part of the L'amour collection and it is soooo sooooo pretty!
So what's the problem? Problem is, i cant decided between N72 and this.
N72 is probably a little old but its function seems better. I wanted to get it at first but kept on delaying my purchase cos i want to wait for 7373 to be released so that i can make a comparison.The only thing stopping me from N72 is the size, it's huge!!! But it has got slightly more functions.
One is more practical while the other is chio-er, how how how!!!
Me and Jiang had our movie marathon today!
I have been dying to watch Step Up which everyone says is very inspiring. The hip hop moves are sleek and cool but somehow i didnt feel as inspired as i thought i would be. Yes, i still love to dance and i really envied those people who can dance so beautifully, but somehow this show didnt appeal to me as much as Take the Lead and Honey. Maybe its the moves(not dirty enough?), maybe it's the music or maybe the storyline, i dont know. Nonetheless, it still touched me and i even cried after their final performance( i know it's so dumb of me and Jiang never let me forget that- he kept laughing at me "no rabbit or dog died what, why you cry!").
I dont know why too, but sometimes i just feel like tearing when i see people perform so spectacularly. Maybe i was imagining that feeling, as if i was on that stage and i was the one who received the awe of everybody. Sometimes i even lament the fact that my parents never sent me for dance classes, sending me to art classes(which is so useless cos i still cant draw for nuts) and music classes(i dont regret studying music, it is still an integral part of my life) instead, such that i can never match up to the standards of people who have been dancing all their lives. Well, i supposed it's never too late if i work hard enough. Im really glad that i signed up for classes at Jitterbugs, worked hard to join blast!, and participated in the anniversary performance, one of the few times of my life that i decided to take intiative instead of being passive and wait for opportunity to drop from the sky.
Everyone deserves a chance to follow their dreams and I guess we have to fight for what we want - the underlying message of Step Up.
Next, we watched James bond, in the same theatre! Im so ashamed to confess that i've never watched any bond shows before and this is the very first one that i watched. Even though it's an incredibly long movie, it was quite entertaining - like duh, its bond.
But Eva Green not very pretty what!Why do guys keep gushing about her?
Whitebait & Kale
Sunday Brunch at Whitebait &Kale
this is where Dr Jiang and Dr Cheak are going to work at so that they can have yummy food from Whitebait & kale everyday :D
risotto with pumpkin, gorgonzola cheese & aged balsamic glaze
I know it looks like disgusting baby food, but trust me, it's the best thing ever. If it is baby food, i shall be a baby everyday :p
belgian waffles, butter scotched bananas & almond croqant
pavlova with fresh cream, passionfruit sorbet & berries
It's such a big serving i actually had trouble finishing it. A pleasant change from the usual small desert portion actually.
Now im happy :)
Oh, and congrats to Blast for clinching the first and fourth place in pulse!
Labels: monthly-versary, wine and dine
Im a poor yet contented girl today :D
I just spent a few hundred bucks on a pair of True Religion brand jeans! I know it's expensive but i couldnt help it, it was so pretty and flattering i had to buy it. And also, i bought a gorgeous lovely pink furry jacket from Esprit which goes very very well with my jeans. I know it's not practical to buy such a jacket in sunny hot Singapore but i tried to reason with myself that since i travel pretty often and pink jackets are hard to come buy, it is a worthy buy!
So i've spent a fortune. but who cares as long as im happy with my purchases :)
hahahaoh my gosh, he is so adorable! I found myself laughing with him throughout the video and it really made my day. A much needed stress reliever, just when i was about to explode from muggin!
Beppu Menkan
My search for the spiciest food in town is finally over! Im a hardcore spice-lover and is seldom satisfied with the amount of chilli in my food, therefore im always so contented whenever something is spicy enough to excite my tastebuds(which unfortunately doesnt happen very often). However, im so proud to declare that im finally defeated today! I managed to finish a bowl of super spicy ramen but gulping down lots of water at the same time( i never drink water when i eat spicy food, so imagine how bad it is!).
So all you chillli-lover out there listen up, Beppu Menkan(beppu means hell) is the place for you to challenge your taste bud!
Ok, so here's how it goes. The ramen comes in five levels of spiciness - marked by one-, two-, four-, six- and eight-chilli symbols on the menu.Being a huge fan of spice, of course i couldnt resist ordering the spiciest of them all. However, for those who are not accustomed to spice like me, i would suggest you try from the second level then slowly build up. There were cases of people fainting and having diarrhoea after only the first two levels of spicy ramen!Fortunately for me, im so used to spice that other than a minor stomachache thereafter, im generally well and kicking. Jiang tried the two-chilli ramen and fell sick, the poor boy...IT's THAT BAD!
A look at how red the soup was and you know how spicy it was!
Here goes!
not to forget my favorite edamame :)
puffer fish oh!
Iced strawberry yogurt
Iced fuji apple yogurt, it was ordered after my lips were burning from the chilli and the strawberry yogurt wasnt enough to sooth my swelling lips.
Ahhh....its such a pleasure to eat such spicy food...i love the burning feeling!
Labels: wine and dine
blast anniversary performance
Phew, its finally over!!! A big shoutout to the promiscuous girls: We did well!!! Im so glad that i didnt forget my steps(except for the 2 counts where the suspenders kinda distracted me) and we didnt mess it up :) The cheers and encouragement from the seniors were a great motivation and im so glad that everyone was so supportive. This performance really meant a lot a lot to me. I made friends, we formed bonds, we improved as a group...it's really one of a kind experience. I have always hated my previous ccas and never bothered making friends there and getting involved, so this is a whole new experience for me.
After our performance, we were feeling high and went around photowhoring before getting our food. The poor guys who were forced to take photos with/for us didnt understand our obession with taking photos and they probably never will :P
the two junior groups performers
our ghost-promiscuous group
4H(erwin, jiexiao, jooteng and idil).omg, their performance was so superb even Pat asked for encore! How i wish i could dance like tt...
Promiscuous girls
sharon
sheryl
tracy
Peggy
Esther
cynthia
jooteng, thanks for your great promiscuous choreography!
happy birthday blast! Im so proud to be part of you :D
Pat
erwin and jooteng, our fabulous choreographers
lina
now tell me, who's the shortie? hrmph!
peggy and i - shagged
ziyen, the super duper nice senior who i like a lot and she is a very good dancer too!
We were still in high spirits and clearly the food at the reception wasnt enough, so we went sweetalk for bubble tea!!!
5 girls and a guy
Thanks girls for working so hard together for the past 3 weeks :) It was tiring but such good fun. Suddenly, without blast, there seems to be something missing and time seems so empty. We must go back to our "clubas7" one day k! I already miss those times when the choreographers left us on our own and we started slacking and doing our crazy stuff. It was really hilarious how we blasted the music and danced as if in a club, did our slutty "nursewalk" and not to mention our famous "stealing" of the dustbins which only we know what it was for(shh, its our little secret k?)
I love you girls, oh, erwin and jooteng too! *muackz*
Labels: danceblast
