Candy Floss Dreamz

thanks everyone for your concern, im fine, really!

Im coping much better than i thought i would. In fact, even im amazed at how well adapted i am. Perhaps im much more resilient than i thought!

I'm kinda happy with the way things are now. Granted, i do feel lonely now and then, but it's not a big deal. I'll get over it eventually. And Im learning to be more independent and enjoy the freedom to do whatever i want without having to answer to anyone. Ok, actually that's not true. Even though, technically, i have the right to do whatever i wish and go out with whoever i want, i still care a lot and so im not as liberated as i should be. But that's alright, im not interested in anything else anyway.

Instead of worrying and getting upset about things that are totally in someone else's hands and out of my control, why not focus on controllable outcomes! Therefore, Im gonna make full use of my free time now to gain knowledge, dance, and hang out more with friends! Im gonna concentrate on my studies and get into graduate school, and also improve on my dancing! Seriously, im not getting much younger. So i better dance more while my aging body still can! Once everyone starts working, life's gonna be too hectic for lazy meals and girly talks, thus i should go out more with my girlfriends now. Who needs guys when you have girlfriends anyway :p And contrary to popular belief, i think girls are simple whereas guys are the complicated ones!

And with regards to the important decision that's gonna be imposed on me 3 months later, i'm not gonna care about it for now. What's the point since i have no role to play in the decision-making anyway! Whatever the outcome is, i can worry about it later. Meanwhile, im emo ching cheng no more!

Im gonna be happy for the next 3 months at least, yay!

posted by dreamz @ 12:01 PM