here i am again, stoning at home, praying and waiting for good news. None came. I've sent countless applications and went to many interviews, but still, no one wants to employ me. Im starting to reflect why. I put in so much efforts, i even go to inconvenient places for the interviews. Like yesterday, it was raining damn heavily, a perfect day to stay indoors. But i have to rush down to some ulu industrial park for an interview, and got totally drenched even though i had an umbrella. My jeans were soaked, and i nearly sprained my ankle trying to avoid the puddles. More interviews today, i hope it doesnt rain. Now, im even applying for jobs that im not even keen on. Like those that only require you to work 4 hrs a day (how much can you earn in that 4 hrs, what a bloody waste of time and effort), put on make -up or sales. I dont wish to do this kind of job, but hey, it's not up to me to decide. I can really say that i've tried my best and if these are the kind of jobs that i'd end up with, well, what more can i say. Someone up there must be kidding with me. Im starting to doubt if results mean anything to them at all. Seems to me that the most important criteria is experience. Without it, it doesnt matter which school you come from or how many A's you've got. This is the impression that the working world has given me, that grades dont matter. So what the hell am i doing in school, mugging my hearts out for the pathetic AAAB that can get me nowhere? I must as well start working now and gain experience so that i can demand better jobs. Afterall, many of the successful people in the world are not well-educated.
I've tried thinking about this whole screwed-up mess in a more positive manner. Perhaps it's a test for me. Maybe it's just something i have to go through so that i would emerge tougher and better abled to handle failures. Dream on, and probably i will have a good job at the end of the day because of all that i've endured. Ignore what i've said earlier on, education is still important. As Bill gates advised, " Get the best education you can. Take advantage of high school and college. Learn how to learn." Despite the impression that i have been given, i guess schooling does help you get somewhere. Nevermind what im going through now, the situation isnt that depressing. Even if im broke, it will only be for 6 months. My parents will not let me go hungry, neither would jianglei. The worst thing is perhaps not being able to buy as much stuff as i want and not getting the experience that i hoped for. It's ok, people go through worse things than this.
so now, i'm trying to psycho myself that this is a learning experience in itself. I learn how to handle stress, depression, failures and interviews. That's great.
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